So I decided to blog it out.
Here's a little blog all about how boys and emotions suck... In fact, I'll probably make that the title. Here we go.
If you've known me for a while or have read my blog posts before, then you know I was in a really long relationship with a guy back in Michigan. Toxic. Really bad. Really, really bad break up. So bad that ever since then, I have refused to be in a relationship. Flings have happened but that's different. Because, from what I've seen of relationships, they rarely work out. I always tell people I never plan on getting married. Never plan on having kids.
Anyway let me tell you the most frustrating thing. After the break up with that guy, there were some absolutely wonderful- and I mean wonderful- guys back home that had respected my relationship enough to not have told me they liked me during it, but afterwards brought up that they did actually like me. And when I moved to Washington? Well, again, I met some phenomenal boys who took an interest in me.
And like obviously my reaction should've been like "Oh my god I can't believe this amazing boy likes me I want to date him right now and I'll be the luckiest girl ever and it'll be great wow this rocks." But silly me likes to just shut them out before I give them a chance because, as of right now, I don't believe that love- the romantic kind, at least- exists.
So I guess that's not even the most frustrating part.
This is the most frustrating part: I was lucky. So so so so so lucky. And had I acted like a normal teenage girl and at least given those guys chances, then maybe we could've had great relationships. But I didn't. And time has passed and GUESS WHAT OMG JORDAN FELL FOR A BOY. A BOY THAT PROBABLY DOESN'T LIKE HER BACK.
I know that everything happens for a reason but damn does this suck. And I know- all teenagers go through liking someone who doesn't like them back. It's normal. It happens. But I don't know... I guess that doesn't make the situation much easier at the moment.
I guess I have a couple points to make and here they are...
POINT #1: I really hope those boys that liked me in the past find girls that love them and treat them right and know how lucky they are to have them. Seriously. They deserve absolutely nothing but the best.
POINT #2: Wow does it suck when someone doesn't like you back. Or at least they don't like you as much as you like them.
POINT #3: But I'll be okay and life will go on and this won't even matter a year from now.
But for the moment, Jordan is sad. (And she's also speaking in third person???) And I don't know if it's solely because this boy doesn't like me as much as I like him or if it's because this is the first time in a reaaaaaaaaally long time that I've let myself be dumb enough to fall for a boy and then he ended up not being into me.
I know this was a stupid blog but writing makes me feel better and even though you probably got nothing out of this... thanks for reading. I appreciate it a lot.
You rock.
-Jordan xx
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