I Love Life

I love my life.

I love blurry photos and candids and nature and sunsets and the beach and the ocean. I love that feeling you get when you're twirling around so fast that your dress gets poofy. I love falling for boys who won't ever want me back. I love tattoos and stories behind tattoos. I love sitting at the dinner table with family when we go around and each say our favorite part about the day. I love performing. I love singing an original song and looking out into the audience and watching them sing along because they know the words.

I love that maybe one day I'll fall in love. I love that maybe I won't. I love traveling. I love walking barefoot. I love learning the verses to raps and surprising people when I can sing the song. I love deep conversations about things that people normally avoid. I love when people are open with me and trust me. I love road trips. I love that feeling of just standing in a general admission concert and looking up and seeing someone you love just a few feet away.

I love looking around the bonfire and seeing 6 of my best friends. I love exploring places near home that feel far away. I love the feeling when you go down the first big hill of a roller coaster. I love making wishes at 11:11. I love the new opportunities that New Years fireworks bring.

I love getting off of a long airplane ride and seeing a familiar face. I love putting the needle down on my record player and hearing music. I love the excitement that I feel when someone special texts me. I love meeting friends for the first time in real life and running into their arms. I love when I listen to a song and it reminds me of someone. I love receiving pen pal letters. I love writing pen pal letters.

I love guiding people around Seattle. I love being guided around new cities. I love taking photos. I love when the winter has been freezing and then suddenly its warm enough to snow so you don't even feel cold. I love stepping onto my college campus. I love turning the fan on when it's hot out. I love old alarm clocks. I love polaroid cameras. I love being so entranced by a movie that I forget about real life.

I love holding hands. I love that moment when you hand someone a gift and it isn't their birthday or a holiday and so they're surprised. I love when one of your best friends calls you because she's scared of killing a spider and you're the first person she thought to talk to. I love when you get to finally lay down after a long, long day.

I love opening a new book. I love looking into someone's eyes and your stare holds just long enough to know that you love each other. I love dreams that inspire novels. I love journals that have writing on every page. I love complimenting shy or old or awkward people and seeing their reactions. I love unveiling my newly colored hair to the world. I love being told "you're so much nicer than I thought you'd be."

I love when someone sees something that reminds them of me and sends me a picture of the object. I love reconnecting with people I've lost touch with. I love turning the TV on and seeing that it's Harry Potter Weekend on ABC family. I love receiving good report cards. I love signing up for new classes. I love the feeling of accomplishment that occurs when your phone is on 1% but you get it into the charger before it dies. I love opening silly snapchats. I love finding old things at garage sales.

I love opening things in the mail that I've ordered online and forgotten about. I love shaking snow globes. I love the sound of a ball against a bat hitting a home run. I love getting to my vacation spot after lots of traveling to do so. I love discovering talented bands/artists that aren't well known. I love complimenting people on things that aren't physical. I love dancing in the rain. I love cuddling with one of my best friends because I know that we'll have to separate soon, considering we live on opposite sides of the country. I love that feeling of seeing my best friends that don't live near me. I love holding onto them and crying and just being blessed by their presence. 

I love fuzzy blankets. I love handmade gifts. I love long, detailed texts explaining why you like me. I love hanging posters and wall art in my room. I love the feeling when I've done my makeup well. I love wearing new clothes and feeling really confident. I love being brave enough to call someone and ask to hang out. I love being able to just lay there in silence with someone and not have it be awkward. I love long necklaces. I love songs that relate to how I'm feeling.

I love the smell of vanilla. I love pandas. I love group chats. I love strings of lights that make rooms look like an eternal Christmas. I love bonus tracks on albums. I love going underwater and just staying there for as long as possible. I love the feeling of motivation I (rarely) get when I decide to clean my room or go for a run. I love when lyrics randomly come to me in the shower. I love cleaning my glasses and seeing the world from a clearer point of view. I love putting pajamas on after wearing jeans all day. I love singing loudly in the car.

I love life for giving me the friends that I have.

I love crying happy tears. I love crying happy tears because I feel so blessed. I love that I overcame the obstacles that faced me. I love that those hard times made me a stronger, better, and happier person. I love who I am. I love what I've accomplished. I love... this. Whatever "this" is.

I love life. I love life. I love life. I love my life.

And I'm so glad I stuck around to experience it. 

And I'm so glad I stuck around to experience it with you.

-Jordan xx

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